Well, I know it’s been
weeks since my last post but I really missed blogging. Like, SO MUCH! (Boring
intro, I know. Sorry) I got so many things in my mind that I would blog about
but the connection here SUCKS. It’s no fun blogging when the connection’s
slowmo.
Ok. Moving on. That
what I currently have in mind now. Few weeks before I got to Brunei, the EX has been texting me, reminding of the memories we once had together and when I asked him
if he wanted us together again he just said that he was not sure and he didn’t
mention if he missed me either. So I guessed he was just lonely and kept me in
his contact list just because I’m like his booty-call or something. When I told
my friends and Gee about this they all agreed that I should just shut him
down and ignore him. They also said that they’ll ever forgive me, literally, if
I were to be with him again because he’s hurt me so bad and I’ll be stupid if
I’m with him again. So I told myself to just forget him. Ignore him. Shut him
down.
But then I came across
these:
‘Just because somebody hurt us once, it
doesn’t mean that we have to permanently delete them from our phone book.’ (I
know that but he DESERVED to be deleted from my phone book!)
‘Things change. People
grow.’
And I thought she was
gonna say 'People change.’ But she didn’t. That’s what made me think. I moved
on I made it very clear to myself that I wasn’t gonna fall to my ex’s trap
again. If she did say ‘People change’, then I know for sure that he is NOT
gonna change. But she said ‘People grow’. And that got me thinking. I was
thinking that people really did grow. I was thinking what if one day, the ex
started to finally GROW and be matured and managed to think rationally about
his past, no, OUR past, and came to me, what should I do then? Should I accept
him again? Are my friends and family going to forgive me if I do that?
But the questions were left hanging. Unanswered. And I’m confused. I guess it’s better to just move on now and think less about him. I’ve been thinking too much about him already. I should stop. Keep calm and move my ass on. Yea, I think I’m gonna do that. Just let the future be future. We don’t wanna ruin the surprise now, do we? J
~najwa
p/s: I got that quotes
from Mrs Ashley Marin of Pretty Little Liars. Yea, currently watching it. This
drama got me thinking about a lot of things. Just for extra information, it was
from Season 2, Episode 3. And today is Azim’s birthday. Happy birthday there old pal.
