You

Hey you.
Yea you.

How are you?
Is everything okay?
Did you arrive safely?

I miss you already.

It's going to be a very long week after this.

I love you. I miss you. Good night Munky Boo.

:)

~najwa

p/s: Thank you for a very great week together. Walaupun terperap je, I had so much fun. As long as it is with you, kan? ;)

Gaduh

Gaduh time sekolah menengah senang nak lari. Boleh apply untuk tukar sekolah.
Gaduh time matrik, boleh tahan lagi. Sebab matrik setahun dua je.
Tapi gaduh sekarang, masa universiti?

Nak pindah?
Memang tak la. Dah la course aku ni susah nak dapat kat U lain.

Nak berenti?
Aku punye kelayakan ni tak cukup lagi untuk terus stop belajar.

The only way was to bear with it for another 3 years. I hope I am strong enough to go through all this.

~najwa

p/s: Luah sini sebab aku dalam proses memboikot Twitter.

Good things

Good thing I get to be the first to bring you to IKEA to eat meatballs.
Good thing I went to see Fynn Jamal with you.
Good thing I get to spend the whole day of the 6th of July with you.
Good thing I get to buy hamper things with you for the PEKA program.
Good thing I get to do all the nicest, fun things with you.
I hope you feel the same.
I miss you.
But I know that we'll never get to do those things again.
And the thought of it hurts me.

~najwa

What bugs me

Maybe what bugs me the most was the fact that you are not around and you don't reply me. Let alone waiting for you to start texting me first. Memang tak la.

~najwa

p/s: Yes. I'm clingy and very dependent like that when it comes to intimate relationship. Hence explains why I am so 'manja'.

p/p/s: Have you forgotten me? Did you not miss me? :(

Currently

Currently thinking of ways to avoid you.
Currently thinking of ways to be away from you.
Currently trying to erase these feelings.
Currently trying to find your replacement (which of course will never be as perfect as you. THIS is HARD. And if I can, I never want to do this).
Currently browsing through other universities that offers my course.
Currently doing anything that would take my mind of you.
Currently.
Currently.
Currently.



But how I wish things are easier for us so that I never have to do all of these things. So that both of us remain unhurt.

~najwa

p/s: Need to find work ASAP so that I can stop thinking of YOU. Thinking of you tears me apart.

Ramadhan

So today is the second day of Ramadhan.

The month where we should control our nafs.
The month where we should do good deeds.
The month where we should do nice things.
The month where we should do soul cleansing.
The month where we should repent.

I guess that is what she's doing now.
I guess I should do the same.

I am too messed up to begin with.
It's time to wake up.

~najwa

p/s: Heart is no longer here. Heart is with you. It will always be with you even though I'm with other people. It will always be with you. This heartbreak is killing me.

Kau, Aku tak suka

Aku paling tak suka bila kau berahsia
Bila kau susah cerita

Tapi aku tahu.
Aku tak boleh buat apa
Aku tak boleh paksa

Sebab hak bukan milik aku

Kan?

~najwa

p/s: Hari pertama Ramadhan dah 'banjir'. Tapi yang tu takpe. Yang tu boleh cover sebab masa tu tengah tengok cerita 'The Last Song'. Hari kedua Ramadhan lebih mencabar rupanya. Hari kedua terus mandi air mata lepas baca semua tu.. Esok macam mana pulak? :|

Dah tak ada

Dah tak ada gambar2 tu kat akaun kau.
Tak apa.
Aku faham.

~najwa

p/s: Tipu kalau kata tak sedih. Berair-air mata. Meleleh-leleh air mata. Tapi sampai bila gambar 'aku' nak terus menghiasi akaun kau kan? Takpe. Aku faham

p/p/s: Rasa macam nak deactivate akaun Twitter. What good does it do when every time you log in, you ended up crying because the Tweets there hurt you so bad.

p/p/p/s: I guess that means I'm going to lose my shoulder to cry on. The only person that can stand hearing me babbling. The only person that understands me. :'((((

maybe

maybe we should just part ways
maybe we need time away from each other
maybe
just maybe
that way
we can finally think clearly
think rationally
and go our own way

back to earth
back to life
back to reality

returning to our life where we'll live in denial
that our hearts are one
but are never together

~najwa

Dan bila putus...

Dan jika putus,
Jika semua putus, adakah kita akan berlagak seperti saling tak kenal?
Seperti kita tak pernah bebal?
Seperti kita sudah sesal?

Itu kah?

Pasti pedih jika itu jalan penyelesaiannya.

~najwa

Terkadang

Terkadang aku terfikir.

Apa jalan penyelesaian kita?

Putuskan semua yang ada dan lupa segala yang ada...

Atau terus, terus dan terus maju tanpa ada salah apa?

~najwa

My Other Half

Marah aku, kau yang redakan.
Senyap aku, hanya kau yang mampu hilangkan.
Bahagia aku, kau gembira.
Sedih aku, kau sakit bila tahu.
Sakit aku, kau jagakan.

What more can I say?
You complete me.
You are, my other half.

~najwa